Can't sleep. Today I let a man stick a needle into my forehead. And I paid him.
The program's going well. We're all warming up to each other. Even the guy who ran into me in the zendo, and the loud girl from my home town -- she's the loveliest of all. Everybody's pretty nifty right now. We're all studying the Diamond Sutra together. The original Conze translations were returned without the culprit being unveiled. Someone decided they'd rather chant Thich Nhat Hahn's translation, so they copied his version and hid the Conze copies. A first in SFZC pedagogy.
We got a lot of time off over the weekend, and I took advantage of it to get a massage and acupuncture. It helped my aching muscles and my energy. Still, I'm very nervous about the coming week, and being able to keep up with the sitting and deal with the pain and restlessness. Still, I'm seeing what I'm getting out of it and it's pretty substantial.
So here I go! Tired, hungry, and distracted by my "outside" life. And now, thanks to anxiety, even more sleep deprived. You'd be surprised how many people are up at night, wandering the halls. This enlightenment stuff is not for the faint of heart.
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